Before I had kids, I worked in a bank doing customer service and sales. It was awful and I had a terrible flare that medication couldn't fix and ended up on disability leave, until eventually quitting when my leave ran out. I spent several years in college as a hostess, and about six months folding... Continue Reading →
Selfish
I'm an angry mom. Not always, but moreso recently. I am always impatient when my kids refuse to listen or whine incessantly, but it's worse now. And their behavior is also significantly worse than before the pandemic, which creates an awful spiral. I know this is hard on the kids, and I know big changes... Continue Reading →
Quantify a Life
A lot of people are getting ready to receive a nice check from the federal government to offset the hardship they are experiencing because of the pandemic. For some its a bonus, because they are essential and haven't lost their jobs. For others it's a bandaid on punctured hull, and it won't cover the month's... Continue Reading →
Diminished
So...I bet you know what's on my mind today. Every day. For the past three months. It's made me so upset I couldn't form coherent thoughts and write about it until today, when I decided I'd had enough time and needed to just get it out. But Kat, don't be hysterical! It's just like the... Continue Reading →
Riding the Dragon
I recently had to pause my medication for Crohn's Disease, and since that brief interruption I've been experiencing a slow slide into old symptoms. Compared to patients in a flare, it's absolutely nothing. For me to live fearlessly and parent on the fly, it's worrisome. What if I have an episode while I'm out with... Continue Reading →
Unleashed
About two months ago I had a partial hysterectomy. It's called a "partial" hysterectomy because the doctor took my uterus and fallopian tubes, but left my ovaries. Initially, I thought he should take the whole shebang, because the more pieces I cut out, the fewer places I will eventually get cancer (I'm nothing if not... Continue Reading →
Human
For Lent I decided to give up harboring negative thoughts about myself and my body, since God made me and trashing his work seemed a poor plan. When I embarked on this noble journey of self-love and acceptance, I didn't know I would be having major surgery. Before my doctor recommended surgery, I was already... Continue Reading →
Worth
Imagine your body like a living room. Pictures hung on the walls, flowers in a vase, photography books arranged on a coffee table centered on a plush rug. The gentle breeze of a fan tickles the flower petals and sunlight glints off the glass in the frames. Now, imagine a hurricane blows through your home.... Continue Reading →
Dust
Today is Ash Wednesday, marking the first day of Lent -- forty days of grieving our sins and performing penance to show devotion to God. It's a little dark to be sure, and difficult to explain to our kids without sounding scary, but the season is preparation for Easter, a celebration of our absolution through... Continue Reading →
Power Trip
I've had my gall bladder removed, given birth three times, had a handful of colonoscopies, and given blood countless times, but I still fear regular dental visits. Everything from the x-rays to the drilling has me clinging to the ceiling. I hate the dentist with all five senses, and while having regular blood draws has... Continue Reading →